Alright well once again I have taken way to long of a break. I want to blog to be able to look back at all the things happening in my life. Hopefully I will post all the great things going on in my life right now such as being on the American Farm Bureau's Young Farmer & Rancher Committee, the little things we are fixing in our house, my attempts at being trying to be crafty, or my attempts to save big with coupons. I am also sure I continue to post about our continuing infertility struggle. That is something I have really been struggling with lately.
On the infertility side my doctor finally gave us a referral to a fertility clinic. We were able to get an appointment in September. He looked at my previous blood tests, and the year’s worth of Patrick’s analyses and told us our only option was IVF with ICSI. After some uncomfortable and painful tests, and more countless blood draws I waited for them to contact me like they said. Finally I called the doctor's nurse end of December to ask what was going on. She said she looked over my file and meant to call me the month before to start things. I was a little upset that I was kind of over looked. So here we were waiting again and feeling defeated. So she told me to call her the first day of my next cycle so I can start the birth control pills. So I call in January and she says my cycle won’t work this time because the lab will be closed when I need to come in. Once again I was left feeling defeated, and I could barely finish the phone call before bursting into tears. So once again we wait, and I think I am going crazy in the process.
But as my blog is titled I am trying to be hopeful and patient. I am trying to change the way I look at things, and remember only He knows when and where. I am also trying to find things to occupy my time so my mind does not wonder. We have been gone so much the past couple of months with the committee that I have not really had time to think. Well now I am home and I starting to have too much time on my hands. So I came up with a few ideas to try to keep myself busy. One thing I am going to try and do is get my Willow House business in full force again. Willow House was formerly Entertaining at Home, which I have been with for four years. I usually have two to three parties a year, but I know I can do so much more with it! I am going to get my name out there more by posting some things on my blog, Facebook, and looking into some sponsor opportunities on other blogs. Also I am going to help out in the office of our farming operation. The poor back office is paper logged so I am going to use my organizational skills to hopefully find the top of the desk!
Well hopefully my next post will be really soon.. although like I have said before I know I am the only one who reads these. :) Also I am working on getting a prettier blog :)
